My studio practice, and therefore this website, has been dormant for a bit. My life has changed dramatically in the last five years, and its taken me time to process and move forward. I got utterly burntout on making work, I had heart surgery, and I want to become the best possible high school school art teacher I can be.
The other thing that happened is Instagram. For a long time pre-Insta I would use this blog to post pictures, experiences, etc. Since Instagram covers that so well, this space felt redundant. I remember the day back in ’09-ish that I took a picture with my old flip phone and posted it via email to my blog. Blew my mind, felt like I was living in the future. Well that’s ancient tech-history. So now the happenings get posted on Instagram, which leaves this blog to become something else.
When I finished at the Bray in 2012, I was beat. Long story short-ish, I had not imagined my life post-Bray. All I wanted in Ceramics was to make it to the Bray, where all of my art hero’s and faculty had been, because that would mean I had been accepted by the field as they were. So when I was there, all I wanted to do was seize the opportunity. Carpe Diem. So I worked. I worked a lot, and I’m really proud of what I accomplished while there. But it came at cost because it was unbalanced. By the time I left I was completely burntout. The last thing I wanted to do was make more work or do another show. I had been burned financially by a couple of places, and I felt my work never reached a critical tipping point of becoming regularity commercially successful enough to make a living off of it.
So I stopped. I had all this momentum, and I just stopped. I was tired. Turns out, as I learned a couple years later, I was way more tired than I ever should have been because my mitral valve was leaking. This lead to me having heart surgery in 2017.
In 2014 I got this awesome job at Charles Wright. The job challenged me in new ways of thinking about education that I had not been exposed to. I felt I had a lot of catching up to do when it comes to being a skilled high school level educator. So I dove in, and its been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.
So now, here in the first few days of 2020, I’m coming off a holiday break that was centered around making work in the studio. My burnout has subsided, and I have that fire again. I again have thoughts about artwork that keep me up at night wondering ‘what if’.